Hello. My name is Kat. I used to write in this blog on a semi-regular basis. I’m back to try to keep my writing mind sharp and relay my observations on life.
What is my life these days? So many things have changed even since my last post (over a year ago!). As I write, I’m sitting at work on my lunch. I am tired. My two year old has recently begun climbing out of things – his bed, his gated bedroom, down the stairs in the middle of the night, and into our bed or the playroom where his Super Wings reside… He’s an early riser. By early, I mean this morning he work up at 3:40 AM for the day. So, life has me feeling sleepy.
But, I’m a mom. I persevere.
I have been in and out of doctor’s offices over the last two weeks. My thyroid is out of whack – or something is. I blame the thyroid because it has been underactive since I was a teenager. But that hasn’t stopped me from living an active life…until lately. I am tired, achy, can’t lose weight, foggy brained, cold. I got a “great” recommendation from my last endocrinlogist – get a gastric band, he said. Those are really effective! So, here we have come in life to the moment when I’m told after a lifetime of being pretty high energy (3 marathons, 6 half marathons (one at 20 weeks pregnant), I climbed Katahdin 5 months pregnant, I’ve biked from Montana to Seattle. I’m not a slug!) the only solution to my myriad health issues is a gastric band. No tests. No referral to a nutritionist. No acknowledgement of my previous eating disorder that at one point had me well below 100 lbs. Just, a gastric band recommendation.
Then, enter the text from the ex.
Yeah, you know. Just a text from my ex boyfriend with whom I haven’t spoken in about 6 years. He’s in town. Let’s clear up the past.
Ha! Righto. Of course, universe. Let’s just let all these things coelesce right now to see if I can be driven off a cliff. I mean, why? I have this all processed and tucked neatly in a box in the corner of my brain and we have to go open that up now? Does this seem like a good idea? Not really.
I just wonder sometimes. When all the weirdities of the world line up to confront you at one time, it seems to be a reminder to get back on track. So, I have been nurturing myself a bit. Sleeping more, stepping aside to breathe, giving my body what it asks for. Because I feel like the universe has something up its sleeve and I want to be ready for whatever’s coming.